Arrested Development

I've been told that I have the emotional maturity of a 13 year old hence the title of my blog- Thoughts of a Grown Up Teenager. Sometimes I'm torn between acting mature and being me. I know I have preconceived thoughts about grown ups and how they are to act. Some of these ideas are based on my own history. I don't want to spend all of my life cleaning, working on the yard, cooking, doing laundry, washing the cars, and doing all the stuff I've seen the adults in my life do all the time. I want to have fun and enjoy life. That's my personality. That's the way God made me. I think that is why instead of finding a balance between mature responsibility and all out fun, I gave up on being responsible. There is a part of me that will never grow up. I really do believe that God made me like that and I don't ever want that part of me to go away. But lately I see that I am also to take responsibility for finances, my house, my family, and for me. I think there is a happy medium there that I need to find. Maybe it's O.K. to be a grown up teenager as long as I'm in a process of growth and as long as I understand that responsibility will not take the "fun me" away. Uh-oh, that sounds kind of mature. Maybe I'm growing some after all:)